Boy how many times have I said that now? Oh well, I am here posting again. Things are going quite well for the most part. I have an apartment now with.. Kevin and another friend of ours. I know awkward right? Considering he is my ex, but I needed a permanent place to stay and this way O have that. My jobis within walking distance now and I'm not the only one paying rent.
How does my boyfriend feel about this? I wouldn't have moved in if he minded. He seems to be completely ok with it. Even when I asked him if he was ok with it he said "why should it matter? You are in a stable place now and thats all that counts." He really cares for me and I can actually trust him! I feel so happy with him, so different than when I am aone. He is here for a few weeks now so I won't feel as lonely as I do when he is gone. I love it when he is here, that dark non-feelingness stays at bay when he is with me.
I still haven't told him about my ana problem, I'm still not ready. I have been failing a bit with that since he has come back to town though... I mean I haven't gained anything but I'm not losing either and thats what is killing me. I hate that. I boosted up my exercise though and am restricting some more. WIsh me luck, lots of love!
An ex bf roomie... lol good luck. Mainly because he's a dude and boys are the worst roommates. lol Sorry about the weight stand still. You'll make it through it I promise.
ReplyDeletexoxoxo lots and loads of luck!
Oh I know!!! Luckily its not just me and him but still. It is awkward none the less and there was one time where he did try to get with me, he was really drunk though so his advances were easy to put off lol And thank you for the support :) I'm hoping to get over the stand still soon!
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