Damn

I haven't been on here at all. I have really been wanting to write but it's hard with my boyfriend hovering around all the time. He is no longer suspicious and he is hours away going to school so I have the time and privacy to write again. Lets see... where to start. I have been doing fairly well with dieting since the boyfriend left. I'm going to start a liquid diet tomorrow. I'm starting off slow and going for two days as it has been a while since I have done anything of the sort. It should be easy. I have two jobs now so I can forget all about food on the job as I am busy most of the day.... It's the night that I am worried about. I always seem hungrier at night and its so hard to stay busy when your trying to wind down. Some nights I don't even sleep. It seems to be getting more frequent too. I had a nightmare about eating last night. There was a banquet on this table and no matter how much I ate, food kept reappearing. I couldn't stop eating and as I ate I got fatter and fatter. Ugh it was so terrible!